I have a friend,whom he is my best friend,whom he is nobody but somebody to me.
We are of the same age.We came from similar backgrounds, and we have similar characteristics.
We resemble each another, its like we are so identical and unbreakable. We both laugh on a comedy and sob affectionately on a very sad event. We share the same idea and we know each other's thoughts. There are nothing we couldn't figure out a solution, we cooperate with each other perfectly.
Until one day, i had disagreement with his attitude as he had become arrogant, ignorant and even overweening. He couldn't understand my kind advice and encourage, and left without a sign. I collapsed and gone blank. Thou I've tried my best to help him, I still failed. Losing my best friend ever whom I depended on and trusted the most. I was lost, totally losing my entire soul. Since he'd been gone, I was left all alone. Every single dream of mine was a nightmare.
Nothing could go worse, I had to adapt to my new life. Loneliness, quietness, sleepless, clueless and spiritness... My soul was like falling into an endless abyss, there was no return. I became desperate, I force myself to weep, force myself to wake up in the midnight. I'm not wrong, I knew it but something is wrong in me...
So after introspectioned, I bought a key and a lock. I builit a concrete house and without any window but a dense door. Locking myself inside is the only way that can make me feel better. I was afraid of sharing my feelings with the people out there for I'm afraid of losing anything...
There were visitors at my doors, knocking but left after no response. Some of them waited and paced in front of the door, eventually left, too. Some kept knocking at the door, shouting my name and attempted to unlock and open the door. Their efforts were useless, I was the one who can go out but nobody would be able to enter my house, built of frightened and loneliness. I'd forgotten what is the lock, could it be something...something that I couldn't figure out? I was afraid, once I open the door, people will get inside and look everywhere, once they are no longer interested, there they will leave, which I really really do not want it to be happening, never.
Till lately, i began to realize how foolish I was all the time. Why should I hide myself away from the world? There are so many beautiful things and people to discover, there are so many things other people can help me, there are so many people caring me. I was stupid, so f*ck idiot. How could I forget about my family, my friends and those who really care??? Oh God how dumb dumb I was.
So I searched for the key, but it is hidden nowhere, but the silver metal shines from the bottom of my heart. It's there, and it was always there. Finally I let out my self, breathing the fresh air and the wonderful sight of God's creations. I'm back again, back to the happy self, the one who resembles tigger, the one who laugh all day. I'm me again. Mine not going to be lost, not ever.
Friends, two person can look at a same thing, but see it differently. Open your heart, let it be filled with care and love. There won't be a perfect day, but there will be one day you find your true perfection. What you want is what you've got. It's not anything that comes from others, but the beauty and glamour of one, lies in the person himself, waiting to be discovered...
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